we’ve all grown up… And i had forgotten my tumblr password and needed a reset because i haven’t been here in a loong while. What a peaceful night tonight… Listening to familiar instrumental melodies from winter sonata.
Sometimes i just find it pointless to update my tumblr and difficult to keep up with everyone’s pace after graduation from school. Probably because i still do not think that i’m especially close to anyone in my life. Or rather i’m of this school of thought that “if you wanted to talk to me, you would” and this applies to everyone whom i know. I guess i’m just fearful of being ignored again should i try to initiate any conversation with anyone, I’ve enough honestly.
Looking back, nothing much has changed in my life. Everything remains status quo. The most memorable was probably results day. It was the darkest day of my life. It was that day and that moment when i badly needed someone to confide in but to my disappointment, i came to the painful realization that I’ve actually not a single soul whom i can turn to when i’m in utter despair. No particular person came to my mind in fact when i broke down. I don’t know exactly, the reason why. My mind went blank and all i saw was darkness before me. I didn’t want to face anyone at all. I felt ashamed of myself. I really wished i could die at that instant.
Next was probably GZ concert which i was contemplating if i should go right till the big day since i’ve mentioned how much i loathed going back to school. But, for the sake of providing support to the lovely juniors, i went ultimately. And i’m glad that i made that decision to go, no regrets fortunately. :) Well i guess these are the main events that i want to remember, of course there are also random cca and friends meetups, but not that worth mentioning in my opinion.
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First day of official work. The job scope is stressful, though still bearable for me, and there’s something personal which i can’t really share here. It’s something to which i said that i am fine and will respect your decision, even though i’m still rather affected. Yet, i can’t really pinpoint what is wrong and complain to my mom, because she’ll ask me to shut up, comment that this is a merely a glance of the so-called “perfect working life”, which I’ve almost always imagined it to be, that i am going to lead in future and how i should take everything in my stride. And she also reminded me to take it as a learning opportunity so that i will be a better person in future. SIGH! I think i just need some time alone this time round. I’ll be fine soon, i’m sure! :)
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I don’t want to apologize for anything anymore… Especially not for the sake of apologizing…
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